Cras wrote:
Mimi wrote:
I hear myself in my thoughts
See, you don't really. You think you're hearing yourself thinking. But you could still be thinking that if you didn't know how the words actually sounded.
Well, you might not think I do because perhaps that isn't how you think, but I am really quite sure that I do. I assume that I would think in some other manner if I were deaf/bilingual, or perhaps just had a different mode of thought. Despite being quite creative, I am not a very visual person, unless it is in my own imagination. By which I mean I can't learn by watching something. I actually can't stand it: write the instructions down, however, and I can visualise from those. When I design something I can plan and chart the entire thing in my head, and then just make it and write the instructions in a way that others can interpret as I go. The reverse is true: If you put a knitting pattern for a discernible shape in front of me I can read it to tell you what it will make (I think this is similar to how some people can read sheet music and hear the tune in their head).
Similar to Grim... I can also play entire favourite films (not many, but things like the Princess Bride) in my head and recall things I have seen if I close my eyes for a bit. Yet other films I watch once I cannot even recall having seen, maybe just a few days later: I seem to wipe them out if I have 'finished' with them. The number of 'I've not seen that film' conversations I have had with Russell where he will reply :We watched that last Tuesday, together!'. In the same was I remember being asked in a meting why I closed my eyes to recall a few things, and it was because I know that the information came in an email and the way I can remember what the information I needed was to close my eyes and just read through it: It depends if I thought the information was useful at the time.
I'm sure that makes sense to some people and absolutely no sense to others, but I think that people's brains might just work in a different way. I know that Russell and I have spent the last few years kind of taking into my account my panic reflex in my speech, which he does not give me a hard time for at least: If I'm tired or stressed, or especially both, and I feel under pressure to speak I will just start saying words. Often it will be the think that I am looking at: microwave, table, Xbox, jellyfish, but sometimes it's where something has jumped into my thoughts and so I go for a word with the same sound at the beginning: lavender/lavatory, parmesan/party... whatever.
Once when I was a bit stressed and looking for a word I was searching with the familiar 'ummmmm' sound and panicked and finished with 'brella'. It's not something I did when I was younger and I think stems from stress a few years ago, but we have learned to smile at it now without any fear of any nasty response, but (and some of you may have noticed) sometimes if I am in a group and a bit tired, or it's very noisy and loud you may find I go a bit quiet, and that's usually because I 'lose my words' as I think of it, and just need some time to catch my thoughts back up.
The same happens in my head when I am tired. I hear my voice and the wrong words creep in: I know that they are teh wrong words as soon as I hear myself saying them, and sometimes I catch myself shaking my head at my inner 'wrong words' to try and work out what it is that I am thinking.