Hnnggh :’(
I’m really upset. God, it’s so stupid and I’m so annoyed because I don’t know what to do. So, yeah, things have been a bit bad recently what with health problems and such, as many will know. You may also know that one of my happy safe places, Spud U Lije has closed down, etc. It's a stupid thing, but they made me happy. Anyway, I don’t have a ‘proper’ oven in my little kitchen, just a table top microwave with a convection element, but it’s not good enough to do a baked potato. It almost became a running joke, to get me a proper baked potato. My mother started looking at potato ovens because I know she really wants to do something kind and nice. Anyway, after almost accidentally bidding on a 120 potato capacity oven she realised that she had a halogen oven she rarely used that might be perfect t for me. So, after me saying no, she should keep it she kept insisting she’d post it. I eventually said no, ok, we’d see her before Christmas and she was under strict obstruction NOT to post it. Of course, stupid idiot spent money she didn’t have posting me her halogen oven by my Hermes. All day she’s been excited. Telling me to buy spuds in anticipation, but the delivery slot kept getting pushed back and it’s just arrived.
Of course it’s broken into a thousand pieces. It’s been packaged all perfectly with layers and layers of padding in the original box but it’s also probably been chucked on the floor from van to van or whatever. And I’ve cut myself on the glass, and of course because of the other stuff I can’t stop effing bleeding now so have had to patch up my bloody hand and my mum is all excited asking if I have time to make potatoes tonight or will it be the weekend and I don’t know whether to tell her because she will be so upset so now I’m just crying and stressed because this was so unceccesary and I do t want her to be sad, and she’s gone to stupid lengths to do a nice thing for me and all for nothing. And I felt rubbish and upset before and I feel worse now and I don’t know whether to tell her. I don’t want to, but short of photoshopping potatoes into my family photos I feel stuck.